Tales of Lothusmater I

-Let the river flow- Said the master Lothusmater Dearevii to his soulmate.

-I can't go with the flow, i can't say "it doesn't matter", with the flow- he said.

-Do you believe in your thoughts? - Said Dearevii ironically.

-I believe in me, I can't wash him from my head, from my lips. The soul is something that can't be cleaned or restored. You've always said that to me.-

-Your thoughts are very different than your feelings, and yes, when the soul, your feelings, become corrupted no matter what you do, it won't be the same. The difference between angels and demons is that the first believe that God can cleanse them, and the second that God is a joke in bad taste. -

-I'm not an angel or a demon, I'm a human-

-Inside, you have a demon or an angel waiting to be born-

-Maybe, I’m not sure, even you can't be sure about that. I won't become an angel or a demon-

-I didn't want to, but you can't choose. When your body, your physical body dies, you'll become it as an essence of your environment...-

-Yes, I’ve heard this tale a thousand times...-

-So, it's not bad to choose your way when you are alive-

After that, the face of the master Lothusmater look to Dearegas' eyes, and he started to sigh. He looked very disappointed.

-I'm scared- said the disciple

-We know that, the demons are able to smell feelings-

-I've discovered that finally, I have something good to die for, someone. -

The master Lothusmater burst out laughing, after that he said:

- You are so fucking pathetic and romantic- with irony, once again.

-Yes, but if I don't die for love, for what then?-

-You could want to die for anything that you want to die for. But you can't choose your death...- And then, the soul mate interrupted his Devilmaster saying:

-In the end, it's always your choice to have something good to die for, but not the choice of your death. I know. It's always for you that you could have the choice to die for something, but not for that; you can't die as you wish. I mean, this life makes death something that you can't choose, but I want to die for something. This is new for me-

Both of them stop talking for a few seconds. Finally the demon said:

-After you have something good to die for, you will be able to find the way to sacrifice yourself. How do you want to die, or how can you find the way to that destiny? That is something you will never know. In the end, these thoughts are always clouds in your head playing with your feelings.-

-I feel it like a heartbeat, it's warmth becoming hotter- Said the guy

-It's calling you. Your soul is one of us: a demon, not an angel-